By Joel Buckner on 26 Feb, 2013
For years I had been building up walls around my heart; protecting myself from pain, agony and the trouble of life. I became a pro at knowing how to keep people at the right distance and even keeping God at a distance as well. My heart was my own and I would never allow anyone to be close. Over a period of time, I became very cold and did not even know it. The biggest change was I noticed was how I lost my passion for worship. When you stop being vulnerable, you cease the flow of worship.
John 10:10 says, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” God’s abundant life is not you being stuck in a corner trying to protect yourself. That’s how the enemy deceives you- so that he can keep you living a defeated life wrapped in loneliness, longing and trying to fulfill voids that only God’s love can fill. As a worship leader, you will lead the people from a position of an empty well. You are burning yourself out because you are not giving out of your abundance; there is no overflow.
In Him we live, move and have our being. Only God can satisfy our need for unconditional love, but we have to open ourselves, and be willing to be broken and vulnerable. In Psalms 51:17, it states that God is looking for the broken and contrite heart. In being broken you will find that the exchange of your weakness for His strength, your pain for His joy, and your anxiety for His peace will take place. Your life will become a well that people can draw from and you will be more authentic.
You become vulnerable again by first, confessing to God through your prayer life. Have a conversation with God where you open up to Him. Yes, it takes faith and yes, it’s painful, but you will find that it’s worth it! You will find that it unlocks His unending streams of grace, mercy and love. Today let your heart be overtaken by His love and you will find life!
I would also challenge you to find a community of people with whom you can be open and share life. As the Bible says, “If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!” (Ecclesiastes 4:10).
Let this be the start of a new day, experience new freedom and live the abundant life; be vulnerable!